i'm am majorly ready to rip everything apart, tear up all of my stupid ass apps, not do any of my homework, and just say to hell with my papers.  i just feel sick of everything right now (and literally too - whatever i had is apparently still with me).  i can't talk to anyone anymore because whatever i say is going to come out wrong and i'll end up pissed off anyways.  i'm sick of hearing everyone whining and complaining because somehow it never makes me feel any better when i do it -- that just means i put up with everyone else's shit.  i feel like everybody including my own family is turning on me.  and to everybody that wants something from me right now: just BACK OFF for a sec.  i feel like everything's crashing down at one time.  i feel like i can't be this way because i'm not supposed to.  and i feel like shit cuz i feel this way right now.

yeah, i've had a bad week.  but that doesn't matter right now.  i have things to do.  i have apps to complete and papers to turn in.  i have friends with problems to talk to.  i have a life to live.

have a good day, everyone.