ok... taking things one step @ a time.

time for a confession.  this may or may not make sense to you, so whatever.  just go with it.  i've been in horrible moods lately (and i know many can testify to that).  it's just that i'm having major issues with blame.  i tend to blame my problems on other people, on other things, etc.  i know its really me, just  wasting energy in order to hate things. (haha! philosophy class!)  because it's easier than actually dealing with my issues.  it's unfair to other people around me, who probably are sick of being around me when i'm like this.  i know i hate being around me when i'm like this.  it's really selfish.  no, this is not me being self-depricating; it's me being realistic. 

so, in the end, i'm sorry for being randomly pissed off @ you.  you people may not even realize who you are, or that i was pissed @ you.  in that case, great.  saves me some time.  but to those that did notice: sorry guys.  i can be a jerk.

it's not you... it's me.

oh, and another thing i hate: that stupid paranoid feeling that everyone knows something you don't and they just talk over your head.  but it's so obvious what they're talking about, yet they won't come out and actually say it.  because you're not one of the "priveleged few".  it makes me feel horrible and it's mostly because it's all in my super hyper active imagination.  it's dumb, i know, but i just had to say it.

well, i'd say that's sufficient crap for today.